Fake it 'til you make it

I haven't posted in a month for a number of good reasons. As you might expect, the first month of motherhood has been a bit of a blur. Lots of breastfeeding, a surprisingly time-consuming activity. Walks each day - sometimes two or three times daily, depending on the baby's mood. Short bursts of much needed sleep. That's been my existence for the past 5 weeks.

The real reason behind my blogging silence is sad, but true. I haven't had much to say. Do you really want to hear about my daughter's sleep habits? The details of her doctor's appointments? The changing colour of her poop?

I didn't think so.

Outside these topics, I can report that I've started running again...very slowly. After warming up with brisk walking, I run for a minute, walk for a minute and repeat for a half hour. The contours of my leg muscles are long gone and my endurance is non-existent. Those who see me on the path would be stunned to hear that I've completed 10 marathons in recent years. I'm on a long journey back to my former self, but it feels good to lace up my shoes, pump the contents of my boobs to lighten the load, and sweat again.

In other news, I've started coming to terms with how little free time I'll have this year. Before the baby's arrival, I thought I would get loads done during her naps. In reality, I have about an hour of productive time available each day and even that's not guaranteed. Instead, I race around the house before Tom leaves for work, doing laundry, showering, organizing my breakfast and lunch...essentially doing the things that must be done while unincumbered by a baby. For the rest of the day, there is a good chance that I'll only have one hand free.

So that's my world. A frantic survival mentality, combined with a humble return to fitness. And have I mentioned that my daughter is nothing short of fabulous? She is uber cute, sleeps a fair bit, and hasn't yet noticed that I'm a complete amateur at this motherhood thing.

Let's hope I can fake it until she clues in. Fake it 'til you make it.